Been to try some swimwear this morning to try to get inspired. Well I left happy. I now own some cute black bikini bottoms and fell in love with a swimsuit that I never thought I ever would like...question is, do I buy it? Haha Well summer and beach 2017 with Stevie is feeling positive! …
Little bit of everything on a very lightly
I'd like to say that life is looking up. I feel like I can do a little bit more than I have been able to, which is nice. I'm still not at any "normal" energy levels but its an improvement at least, or has been the past few days at least. I keep trying to…
Double first quick drop in
Just a quick drop in. Been for my first massage since surgery and OH MY it was divine! Found an offer for a 'hot stone massage' and jumped at it, I've never had a 'hot stone massage' before either so double firsts. I was a bit worried about laying on my belly for an hour…
Valentines day and a lovely weekend of love and thoughts
Forecast today in the Life o'Charlotte, gloomy with patches of sun. My head feels like someone is holding a pair of pliers and squeezing all they can while pushing my head towards my shoulders at the same time as they are pulling it upwards. Yeah that doesn't make sense but neither does the feeling. Spoke to…
Dark place
I am still stuck in this dark place. Everything is dark around me and inside me right now. I feel like I've lost myself. Somewhere along this journey I lost a huge part of me. I have always known what I want to do or felt a pull in one direction and thought 'it will work…
Sister support and new bags
It was great having my baby sister here! It's so empty now that she has gone! Before she went she tried on a bag so she could see what it was like. She also had a look at my stoma (on a picture). She has been my biggest challenge and has found this all very…
Naive new pain
So'pain the the backside' just got a new meaning. I guess I was very naive when the doctors said I "wouldn't have UC anymore" after surgery. Well I fear I might have a flare in my rectum. It's sore when I sit down and is a strange feeling I can't remember having felt before. I…
It happened again…
Well there we go again. Today has been a super exhausting day. Today me and Stevie had the worst accident so far. Walking to work with my sister and when we were just around the corner from work I suddenly felt my leg go warm. At first I thought shit that must be a leak but…